:)

yeah, you didn't seem to notice
but it washed over me
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welcome 2 my twisted mixtape. learning the ropes so we’ll see how that goes. anyway, here’s some of the early posturing.

carry me down that old dark road
where the haze will fill my lungs
lay me down in the cold black hole
where the water will reach my tongue
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A little bit ashe (maybe not in sound or tone but… you know how these things go) and a little bit acknowledging the certainty of death. one of their first conversations is probably about last rites. m0r1bund.com...

I was born without this fear
Now only this seems clear
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listen. listen. it’s my playlist and while I don’t get to choose the songs that these two imprint on for no reason, i nonetheless include them.

If this is death it's not what I imagined
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oh, you know, just little white ghost things :)

Tell me all about my past
Tell me all about what I've done wrong
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god I love ‘tell you’ and ‘evil.’ conversation among the resigned. Not accusatory, like morgan to ashe or ashe to morgan, necessarily. Maybe more like self-sabotage and putting up walls to protect yourself and the other party. Or speaking to the shared ground between true monstrosity and perceived monstrosity.

Tell me oh, what a shame
Tell me that I'm good as gone
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god I love ‘tell you’ and ‘evil.’ conversation among the resigned. Not accusatory, like morgan to ashe or ashe to morgan, necessarily. Maybe more like self-sabotage and putting up walls to protect yourself and the other party. Or speaking to the shared ground between true monstrosity and perceived monstrosity.

Oh when the wild was all covered by snow
I forgot the colors that the grass tend to grow
Oh the trees were all leafless
And lifeless and black
And I wondered if the leaves could grow back
For your heart is like a flower as it grows
And it’s the rain, not just the sun that helps it bloom
And you don't know how it feels to be alive
Until you know how it feels to die
Oh and if there's any love in me
Don't let it show
Oh and if there's any love in me
Don't let it grow
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God. The thesis statement. The ethos. Morgan song since 2014. flat-out refusal to feel anything as a self-preservation instinct and also as an act of self-reproach. acknowledging the tremendous love in the world around you while being unable to afford the same kindness to yourself. king please work through your feelings.

Oh, I love you with all of my heart
Oh, I love you with all of my heart
Oh, I love you with all of my heart
But I just can't trust you now
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Holdover from a former time when the morgan/ashe relationship drama was more reactionary, but nonetheless it remains. June is so right. Throwing away my heart, you put the knife against my throat so the love can spill out against my will. And You Know.

And I'll use you as a makeshift gauge
Of how much to give and how much to take
Oh I'll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense, then you'll lose your mind
Oh, and I found love where it wasn't supposed to be
Right in front of me, talk some sense to me
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Fun fact: found this song in a zootopia amv of all places. I slam dunked it in the morgan/ashe playlist so fast. Using another person as a compass to figure out just how far gone you are is just. It’s not good. it’s pretty bad in fact.
But (clenches fist) the themes and the motifs

When you work it out, I'm worse than you.

It's another bad dream
Poison in my blood stream
I'm dying but I can't scream
Will you show me the way?
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Another holdover from a former time. I’m a simple woman. Agonized man becomes Sauntiaq, lives in denial, fears retaliation, but nonetheless risks closeness with That Man. does it actually fit? I’m middling my hand. But im boogieing

Oh, I'm wishin' you're here
But I'm wishin' you're gone
I can't have you and I'm only gonna do you wrong
Oh, I'm gonna mess this up
Oh, this is just my luck
Over and over and over again
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And there's always time to change your mind
Oh, there's always time to change your mind
Oh, love, can you hear me?
Oh, let it drift away
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You can really fit so much self-sabotage in these bad boys. Also its fun because morgan is an archer… get it… aha… . . . please do couples therapy.

What if it makes you sad at me?
And what if it makes you laugh now but you cry as you fall asleep?
And what if it takes your breath and you can't hardly breathe?
And what if it makes the last sound be the very best sound?
What if what I want makes you sad at me?
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Communication skills so poor that they kiss and make up before even realizing they’re a unit. You know how it is.

I've lost the will to fight
I was not made for life
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Can’t even annotate this without getting into enormous spoilers. What can I say. This is a morgan song. He is having a bad time. Basedt is a story about, among other things, unceasing tenacity and giving up. By god this song kicks my entire ass

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face, and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face, and I
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well. it;s coldplay’s 2005 hit single fix you. and I think about my silly fictional men when i hear it. hope this helps

They're all made up lies
And stupid daydreams
But maybe they won't be
Someday
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There’s a lot of songs in here that make me go ‘by god this artist gets it’ but I mean it about Made Up Lies and Stupid Daydreams. I mean it. I made a whole comic about Made Up Lies and Stupid Daydreams that’s so mortifyingly earnest I still have a hard time looking at it, 5 years later. June did that for all of us. m0r1bund.com...